The Second Opinion

Last Thursday evening, we dropped Reyana and Kelton off at Grandma and Grandpa's house and traveled to Omaha with Audrena. We had booked a hotel room at the Sheraton since we would need to be at Boys Town by 5:30 am on Friday. The Sheraton offered a Boys Town patient discount, and it has been newly remodeled. Let's just say we highly recommend it. The room was clean and comfortable, with very nice furnishings, and it was affordable with the discount.

We arrived at Boys Town right at 5:30 and were checked in immediately. They took us to our room, where we put Audrena into a little pair of hospital pajamas and grippy socks. Then we went to the toy room to pass the time until they were ready for her.

At a little after 7:00, the anesthesiologist and nurse came to take Audrena. Another staff member brought us some breakfast. We waited for the ABR to be finished, not really expecting the results to be any different from the first ABR, even though Audrena would be under anesthesia for this one.

After awhile, Dr. L. came in to tell us that the ABR showed no response. That means they maxed out their equipment at 120 decibels, and Audrena couldn't hear any of it. She has profound hearing loss. In simple terms, she is deaf. I handled that news fine. I had prepared myself for it. Then Dr. L. explained that they would be taking her for an MRI next to check for the presence of an auditory nerve. Immediately we felt like he had yanked the rug out from under us. What?!? How could it be possible not to have an auditory nerve? I had never read that in any of my research. I vaguely remember asking what option we might have if she did not have an auditory nerve. He explained that there are limited options. They are just starting to do things like brainstem implants, and the only doctor doing them is in Italy. My world started to spin at that point. I wanted to throw up. I'm a planner. I have to know what is going to happen next. In this case, I was not prepared.

Dr. L. left the room, and I cried. Randy and I hugged each other and tried to convince ourselves it would be ok. After all, my cousin's daughter is deaf, and she is graduating high school, having lettered in sports, etc. She does wonderful. We know other people who cannot hear, and they do great in life. But they are not our baby girl.

Shortly after I finally got myself composed, the Audiologist came in to speak with us. She brought a hearing aid with her so we could see what Audrena might have. They typically do 3 months of hearing aid trials before cochlear implants for a few reasons. It gets the child used to something being on her head, and it stimulates the auditory nerve to some extent while the pre-op and insurance approval process takes place. I remember asking her what the chances were that Audrena would not have an auditory nerve. She said she didn't have any statistics, but she knew it was very rare. I cried again. Then she offered to forward the records to the Birth to 3 program and to Dr. M. at USD. She knows her from college days and had good things to say about her, suggesting that it really would save us a lot of time to work with Dr. M. on things that USD was equipped for. I signed some release forms, and off she went.

At some point the Audiologist came back with a cochlear implant packet. It had brochures and paperwork for us to fill out. We hesitatingly took that to mean that the MRI had shown an auditory nerve.

The nurses brought Audrena back to us, took her IV out, and told us we could take her to the toy room while we waited for Dr. L. I snuggled my girl and hoped for the best.

Dr. L. came in and said the neurologist said the auditory nerve was normal. He was not convinced it looked quite as it should, but it could have been a difference in computer screen contrast. He would have to call the neurologist and consult with him some more about it. They had also done the CT scan, which explained why things took a little longer.

Then he explained that Audrena has a larger-than-normal cochlear opening, which will cause a "gusher" in surgery. As he drills through the mastoid, spinal fluid will gush. He will need to pack it with tissue to seal it up. This is something he is used to handling, and he can take care of it. However, it will raise Audrena's risk for catching bacterial meningitis throughout her lifetime. As Randy got completely hung up on the word "gusher," I had it together enough to ask how vaccination affects that risk. Dr. L. said it does bring the risk down some, and he explained that as she is now, she's already at a higher risk due to that malformation. We were both trying to take it all in and neglected to ask for statistics or percentages so that we could assess what we're facing.

Dr. L. said Audrena also has smaller-than-normal mastoids, but again, he said he is used to dealing with that. All of this combined, though, means that he will not do a bilateral implant surgery. Audrena will have to have two separate surgeries, about 6 or so weeks apart. He wants to do the first one and assess how well she does with the implant before proceeding with the second surgery.

He did say that we could expedite hearing aid trials since we know they will not help. Our biggest delay, he said, will be getting insurance approval. He would get us scheduled to meet with the cochlear implant team in the meantime.

He told us that Audrena has a "very abnormal vestibular system," which means that her balance is bad. He said her vision will compensate for that, allowing her to walk, but she will need a night light or a flash light in the dark where she cannot see. Again, I had the rug pulled out from under me, and the only thing I could think to ask was, "Will she be able to do normal kid things like riding a bike?" He didn't know if she would be able to do those balance-dependent activities like bike riding. Randy had the presence of mind to ask if physical therapy would help, and Dr. L. did recommend it.

Dr. L. also referred us for genetic testing since we now know that Audrena's ear conditions are congenital, meaning she was born with them.

We left Boys Town feeling completely defeated. What if the neurologist was wrong, and her auditory nerve was not normal? How much benefit would she receive from cochlear implants? How huge of a risk would she be for meningitis compared to now? We were not prepared for two surgeries. And what about her vestibular system? How bad will it be for her? I was just sick, and the entire way home, I just wanted to throw up. Why couldn't have the MRI just been normal?